We decided to switch doctors, and yesterday was our first appointment with her. I LOVE her. Nothing against the doctor I started with, I just needed someone that matched my personality a little more. My doctor before had made each appointment feel rushed, and he never volunteered information. He was knowledgeable and friendly, but I never felt as though he had the time for me to ask questions. I especially felt jipped when we listened to the baby's heartbeat for the first time for about 5 seconds before he pulled it away. I wonder if he has been doing what he does for so long that he forgets how exciting it is for first time parents? Anyway, I felt so much more comfortable with Dr. Savage yesterday. She is probably in her late 40's and has 6 children of her own. After she talked for a while about what to expect at each appointment, handed me papers that also told me what to expect, gave me a cool little book that I can bring with me to each appointment so she can document my weight, the baby's heartbeat, etc. for me, and then asked if we had any questions or concerns, it was all I could do not to hug her! We also loved that this new office offered an "early gender check" (ultrasound) for only $25. Couldn't turn that down. So that was first on our agenda this morning and it was so fun to see our baby for the first time. Definitely makes this all seem more real.
During the 9 months that we tried to get pregnant I found myself worrying it would never happen and I would think things like, "Why doesn't Heavenly Father want me to have a baby? Does he think I won't be a good parent? He gives teenagers babies who don't even want them. Surely I will be a better mom than some of them.....", etc.
Life is funny. Because now that I'm pregnant I'm thinking things like, "Wow, I can't believe He's trusting me with a baby. I don't know how to be a mom, I only know how to be an aunt and baby-sitter. I am sooooo blessed to be pregnant, I can't believe He is actually giving me a baby. I don't deserve it. What did I do to deserve this?"
Unlike some expecting moms, I'm not in a hurry for these next 5 months to go by. I'm grateful and glad for the time I have to prepare mentally and physically. Maxyne (my mother-in-law) asked me today how I wanted to do the nursery and I realized I haven't really given that any thought. And couple friends asked me today if I've bought anything or if I started making bows once we found out. The answer to both was no, although I did buy some Huggies wipes for a dollar each using coupons. :) And I need not to worry about my baby going naked as our friends and family are already spoiling us! (Our baby is already officially a Michigan State and BYU fan.) Today Maxyne had 2 outfits bought within 30 minutes of finding out, and my mom text me around the same time saying she had ordered a Christmas sleeper. (Yes.....that would be for Christmas 2012...13 monthes away)
I LOVE baby clothes. And I REALLY LOVE baby girl clothes. I can tell Kyle is very excited about it being a girl, but I also know that deep down he has to be worrying a teeny bit about our wallet. So I will try to steer clear of baby sections.....for now. The day will come that I won't be able to resist buying something here and there. It's unbelievable how fun it is to put a package of wipes in the empty nursery. I can't wait until we have a closet full of adorable pink clothes!
